Listening to: Cupid - 369
Mood: Yipee :o)

Apparently I've been hibernating again!
On this day in two weeks I will officially be on holiday, fantastic, three months has gone scarily quick, crazy! I'll be a student again in four months, which also is quite scary! This will be my fifth stint at college, what a geek I am!
Actually my geekiness has reached an all time high, I went to see Star Trek the other day, and it was absolutely fantastic, but that wasn't the geeky part, five of the actors and actresses I could name in full and know exactly what they had previously been in, despite the fact that they're not even really actors that I'm actually a fan of, Johnny Depp on the other hand, had been in films for five consecutive years 2003 - 2007, his longest slot of consecutive years, that average person wouldn't know that, and yet somehow that kind of crap is just in my brain! If only I knew more intelligent things...
29th March - 12.59
Listening to: The Saturdays - Up
Mood: Meh :o(

Feeling a bit fed up at the moment, same old same old bollocks, but hey!
I should be happy really, it's very nearly only 2 months until holiday, I wish it was here now, I'm just fed up with everything at the moment. Our family holiday is booked up too now, a villa in Cyprus, with a private pool, I really can't wait, I need to keep my mind focused on good things, but sometimes that's not so easy.
Nicks suprise for me is next saturday, I love suprises but at the same time it drives me nuts because I desperately want to find out what it is, but I guess I'll know soon enough...
19th March - 15.48
Listening to: Timbaland - The Way I Are
Mood: Happy :o)

Our Assistant Manager James has quit, just like that, without notice, nothing. I don't blame him really, the manager - Richard and Katie the Supervisor and James they had their usual monday afternoon managers meeting. I was the only one left actually working, they were all sitting down the end of the restaurant in their 'meeting' it was a good place to have it really, it wasn't hard for me to overhear James getting a good old bollocking. I feel sorry for him really, he's been unhappy at work for some time and although that doesn't make up for him being slack, an earful of abuse doesn't really help.
James is the kind of manager that makes friends with his staff, so of course he was in trouble from day one really, if you start off without respect, you're not really going to earn it if you're buddies with everyone. It's a shame really I got on well with James on the whole, I'm not shocked that he's gone though, I just wonder who will replace him...
I've been keeping up with my mission of going to the gym, for the past two weeks I've been doing really well, but this morning I was truly scared! I saw this girl in a scary ensemble, she had dark tights on, dark coloured shorts, trainers, baby pink leg warmers and a white belly top, I couldn't help but stare, she looked so outrageous, I've never seen anyone dress so randomly like that for the gym!!
I've tried not go too crazy at the gym, but I was there for about an hour today, managed to do 800 calories, I have no idea if that's a lot in the real world, but for me it is lol! I feel really proud of myself for once, its the first time in the two years I've had my membership that I've kept going solidly, I think passing my driving has a lot to do with that. I know driving to and from the gym is probably lazy, but for me it takes the hassle out of getting there, because previously it meant getting a lift, bus or walking. So if driving there means that I go, then that's a good thing! I don't really have a target or a goal weight, I'm just going to try and lose as much as I can before my holiday in June, but I want to make sure I carry on doing it even after my holiday. My mum every year goes on a short diet before her holiday, but then when she gets back, that's it, she'll go back to eating rubbish, if she would just stick to it throughout the year she wouldn't need to make such an effort!!
I can't believe Natasha Richardson has died, and the fact that her injuries were thought to be so minor, it makes you think what if they'd taken her to hospital straight away would they have been able to save her, my heart goes out to her family and her poor children.
I went to see Marley and Me with Nick yesterday, it's such a lovely film, I'd read the book when it was released so I was waiting eagerly for the film to come out, it does not disappoint, a very funny, lovely film, but god did I cry at the end, but it's definately well worth seeing!
Jennifer Aniston has come such a long way, personally I hated friends, but she's done so well since, and plays fantastically in Marley and Me.
I think I've babbled enough for now, so I bid you farewell...
15th March - 11.24
Listening to: Take That - Up All Night
Mood: Happy :o)

I've joined four more fanlistings since we last spoke!
It's 2 months and 2 weeks until Nick and I go on holiday, I'm so excited, and everytime the sun comes out I get even more excited! I sent off my college application a couple of weeks ago, I've not heard anything from them yet though, very annoying, I think I may have to ring them, I hate all this waiting around, I can't really plan anything unless I know for sure that I have a place.
Nick and I went out last night, meeting up with some old friends, one of them being my heartbroken friend, we had all met at the pub and we were then supposed to be going to Chelmsford for another friends birthday. Everyone seemed to have lifts to Chelmsford except me and Nick, we really didn't have the funds to pay for a taxi there and back by ourselves, so we just went home after the pub. However my heartbroken friend - Adelle got a lift with a friend of a friend, someone she didn't really know that well, and had consumed half a bottle of wine as well as some shorts! Stupid, stupid, I wouldn't have even trusted Nick to drive after having had that much let alone someone I barely know! I did warn her not to go, but her response was 'I have no other way of getting there'. But hey ho, she made her own choice!!
Atleast I'm feeling good today as opposed to being hungover like all the others, well I say good, but I'm all achey, I have a sore throat and a bit of earache, wonderful...
8th March - 17.40
Listening to: James Morrison & Nelly Furtado - Broken Strings
Mood: Happy :o)

I decided that since it's been ages since I've updated, that I'd spoil my sad, lonely blog with a new layout! I always say I'll make an effort to update frequently, I'm not going to make that promise this time, because I usually break it.
This year has been a great year so far, it was my 23rd birthday on the 18th Feb, it was a great day, Nick took me to London, with the intention of going to the Planetarium, as he'd bought me a star for valentines day, he wanted to see if we could find it in the sky. However we ended up walking down this long road for ages, in the end I made Nick tell me where we were going, on the off chance that I might know how to get there. Eventually we gave up walking, and hopped back on the tube back down to the station we had walked from, it was only then that we spotted the sign for the Planetarium, stating that it was supposedly 150yards or so from the station. Well, we were wandering around nearby for a while, the sign said that it was somewhere before Madame Tussauds, but could we find it! In the end I suggested we go to Madame Tussauds, I'd always wanted to go there, which once again meant a bit of a wander down this road to get to the end of the queue, it was so long! Although it moved along quite quickly while we were outside, when we got into the building there was a sign saying that there was apporximately an hour to wait from that point.
I know we must have waited just over an hour in total but it didn't feel like it had been that long, and I'm glad we did wait it was definately worth it!! When we got out it was definately time for lunch, we headed back to the familarity of Liverpool Street and ate at a little restaurant. We flicked through the brochure for Madame Tussauds and found that the Planetarium was somewhere within the Madame Tussauds building, but god knows where, unless we missed out a chunk of the building!!
Shortly after my birthday on the 23rd Feb, I finally passed my driving test on the sixth attempt, I was so happy, I'd never cried on any of my failures, but when I passed that's when the tears came rolling down!!
Then, three days later on the 26th Feb, Nick proposed, it's been a crazy month!! It feels so strange to think of myself as engaged, but I love it, and I love Nick very very much! We spoke about having our engagement party next month, however it would seem that he's up to something again, he said he's got another suprise for me. I'm not good with suprises though I always try to guess what it is!! I feel that it may be engagement related because when I asked him, he said that he wouldn't tell and that I should be quiet lol.
We also booked our holiday last week, we're going to Costa Dorada, Spain for a week on the 2nd June, I can't wait, it's going to be fantastic, we're staying in a four star hotel, it looks lovely. I've never stayed in a hotel, we've always had apartments. It's all inclusive though so Nick will be eating everything!!
Everything is going so well for me right now, as for my friend, she used to be my bestfriend, years ago, up until the point where she met her boyfriend and I sort of got shunted to one side. She explained that this was because her relationship with her boyfriend was new and she wanted to build on that. I can see her point but it was still hurtful.
Sometimes we'd arrange to go out and then she'd let me down and I'd find out that it was because she wanted to see her boyfriend instead, after a while I grew tired of this treatment, I told her where to go and where she could stick her friendship, but somehow I let her back in again.
When we were younger about 17, all our other friends seemed to envy our friendship, we were so close, and back then even with previous boyfriends, we were still so close. And then Jack came along, the guy that she loved so so much, and the person that ended our friendship, but now their relationship is over.
She didn't even tell me, until two weeks after it had happened, I had been telling her all my good news, but she hadn't told me anything. She still hasn't told her family that they've broken up. I don't think she's coping well at all, she's not eating and she's bottling all this stuff up, it's not healthy!
Now I'm thinking, what do I do, we are different people now, although when we meet up we can yap on for ages and ages, that spark that drew us together in the first place is still there. But do I trust her? I just don't know, I want to help her, we've known eachother since we were kids, when we were four. We were inseperable in high school, and managed to survive going to different colleges.
But that friendship was trashed years ago when Jack came along. I'm not even sure she can open up to me anymore, she said she's not ready to talk about the whole thing yet, but when she is ready, what do I do? There's no doubt in my mind that the friendship we had may form again, but do I just stand there and let it happen, just to be kicked to the side again when she meets someone new, or if they get back together.
I guess it's just a waiting game....